If You Always Do What You Have Always Done.....

My mind has been working heavily these days. Still waiting, not so patiently, for my baby girl to arrive. Still planning and getting everything together for the long awaited baby shower. Still contemplating my so called life.....

But out of all the things that have been running across my mind, the one major one is complacency. Just by observing my decisions and the things that Ive done these past few years, I easily just fall into a rut. I tend to get a job and keep it, which is a great thing but I often get stuck doing the same thing and getting so comfortable that I don't look for other opportunities to grow. I tend to get comfortable with people and situations as well, even when it becomes more than clear when their purpose has been served or if there is really no good purpose or intention.

Why do I do this?

I've realized that over the years I have invested more into others than myself. Emotionally, physically, financially....etc. Its time that I start to really focus on me and get myself right. Spoil myself, love myself, listen to myself, be there for myself, and most of all believe in myself. I have often worked my butt off and often had nothing to show for it because I was so busy saving others. Who is gonna save me?
Who is gonna make sure that I'm good?
Don't I matter?

Truth is, I do matter. But the person I should matter the most to is me.

I really need to learn that its OK to put myself first sometimes and to cater to me.

When People Show You Who They Are......

There comes a time when the fairytale ends and you start seeing the real version of someone. Maybe it was the version that you hoped didnt exist but that version never really hid itself. It was always there. Obvious. I think I have gotten so numb to it all. So scary when I think about it. Lord please dont let my heart grow cold. Let it stay open....for the right one.

God Willing.....

I hate to make plans. I still do it sometimes but often my plans never pan out. I have all the best intentions and here comes life's shady ass knocking me right off my feet. Now that I have secured a new place for me and my son (and baby on the way), I feel like I can finally begin to focus on my YouTube channel, this blog, and other things how I would like. It seems like once I get on the ball, life happens, and I have to stop. It makes me wonder if things were better, where would this blog and my channel have been. I just pray for stability and peace right now so that I can do the things that make me happy and for the ability to provide my little family with what they need. GOD willing, things continue to be on the up and up.....

Just That Fast

Something great just happened. When i thought things couldnt get any worse....HE showed up and showed out. Happy tears...for once....in a long time. Blessings. Ttys ✌

Style Overhaul

I was in my closet the other day and I found myself browsing through some items and a thought popped into my head. Wouldnt it be cool to start over? Um, Yeah!!! Now this year I did say I wanted to update my closet but I also said that I wanted to be more frugal. I definitley want to get back into thrifting because I used to find the best pieces. I'm thinking about doing a series where I update my closet/style but for less. I would love for my closet to consist of stylish pieces that suit me. My style is more of a classic/preppy type. I love simple things that are clean cut yet stylish but it is also  a must that they fit me well. So heres to happy hunting!!! I'll keep you posted on my style journey.

Winter time Fine!! (Youtube Tutorial)