If You Always Do What You Have Always Done.....

My mind has been working heavily these days. Still waiting, not so patiently, for my baby girl to arrive. Still planning and getting everything together for the long awaited baby shower. Still contemplating my so called life.....

But out of all the things that have been running across my mind, the one major one is complacency. Just by observing my decisions and the things that Ive done these past few years, I easily just fall into a rut. I tend to get a job and keep it, which is a great thing but I often get stuck doing the same thing and getting so comfortable that I don't look for other opportunities to grow. I tend to get comfortable with people and situations as well, even when it becomes more than clear when their purpose has been served or if there is really no good purpose or intention.

Why do I do this?

I've realized that over the years I have invested more into others than myself. Emotionally, physically, financially....etc. Its time that I start to really focus on me and get myself right. Spoil myself, love myself, listen to myself, be there for myself, and most of all believe in myself. I have often worked my butt off and often had nothing to show for it because I was so busy saving others. Who is gonna save me?
Who is gonna make sure that I'm good?
Don't I matter?

Truth is, I do matter. But the person I should matter the most to is me.

I really need to learn that its OK to put myself first sometimes and to cater to me.